By Francis Scott Fitzgerald
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
--THOMAS PARKE
D'INVILLIERS
(Fragment)
Chapter 1
In my younger and more vulnerable
years my father gave me some advice that I've been turning over in my mind ever
since.
"Whenever you feel like
criticizing any one," he told me, "just remember that all the people
in this world haven't had the advantages that you've had."
He didn't say any more but we've
always been unusually communicative in a reserved way, and I understood that he
meant a great deal more than that. In consequence I'm inclined to reserve all
judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made
me the victim of not a few veteran bores. The abnormal mind is quick to detect
and attach itself to this quality when it appears in a normal person, and so it
came about that in college I was unjustly accused of being a politician,
because I was privy to the secret griefs of wild, unknown men. Most of the
confidences were unsought--frequently I have feigned sleep, preoccupation, or a
hostile levity when I realized by some unmistakable sign that an intimate revelation
was quivering on the horizon--for the intimate revelations of young men or at
least the terms in which they express them are usually plagiaristic and marred
by obvious suppressions. Reserving judgments is a matter of infinite hope. I am
still a little afraid of missing something if I forget that, as my father
snobbishly suggested, and I snobbishly repeat, a sense of the fundamental
decencies is parcelled out unequally at birth.
And, after boasting this way of
my tolerance, I come to the admission that it has a limit. Conduct may be founded
on the hard rock or the wet marshes but after a certain point I don't care what
it's founded on.
When I came back from the East
last autumn I felt that I wanted the world to be in uniform and at a sort of
moral attention forever; I wanted no more riotous excursions with privileged
glimpses into the human heart. Only Gatsby, the man who gives his name to this
book, was exempt from my reaction--Gatsby who represented everything for which
I have an unaffected scorn. If personality is an unbroken series of successful
gestures, then there was something gorgeous about him, some heightened
sensitivity to the promises of life, as if he were related to one of those
intricate machines that register earthquakes ten thousand miles away. This
responsiveness had nothing to do with that flabby impressionability which is dignified
under the name of the "creative temperament"--it was an extraordinary
gift for hope, a romantic readiness such as I have never found in any other
person and which it is not likely I shall ever find again. No--Gatsby turned
out all right at the end; it is what preyed on Gatsby, what foul dust floated
in the wake of his dreams that temporarily closed out my interest in the abortive
sorrows and short-winded elations of men.
My family have been prominent,
well-to-do people in this middle-western city for three generations. The
Carraways are something of a clan and we have a tradition that we're descended
from the Dukes of Buccleuch, but the actual founder of my line was my grandfather's
brother who came here in fifty-one, sent a substitute to the Civil War and
started the wholesale hardware business that my father carries on today.
I never saw this great-uncle but
I'm supposed to look like him—with special reference to the rather hard-boiled
painting that hangs in Father's office. I graduated from New Haven in 1915,
just a quarter of a century after my father, and a little later I participated
in that delayed Teutonic migration known as the Great War. I enjoyed the counter-raid
so thoroughly that I came back restless. Instead of being the warm center of
the world the middle-west now seemed like the ragged edge of the universe--so I
decided to go east and learn the bond business. Everybody I knew was in the
bond business so I supposed it could support one more single man. All my aunts
and uncles talked it over as if they were choosing a prep-school for me and
finally said,
"Why--ye-es" with very
grave, hesitant faces. Father agreed to finance me for a year and after various
delays I came east, permanently, I thought, in the spring of twenty-two.
The practical thing was to find
rooms in the city but it was a warm season and I had just left a country of
wide lawns and friendly trees, so when a young man at the office suggested that
we take a house together in a commuting town it sounded like a great idea. He
found the house, a weather beaten cardboard bungalow at eighty a month, but at
the last minute the firm ordered him to Washington and I went out to the
country alone. I had a dog, at least I had him for a few days until he ran
away, and an old Dodge and a Finnish woman who made my bed and cooked breakfast
and muttered Finnish wisdom to herself over the electric stove.
It was lonely for a day or so
until one morning some man, more recently arrived than I, stopped me on the
road.
"How do you get to West Egg
village?" he asked helplessly.
I told him. And as I walked on I
was lonely no longer. I was a guide, a pathfinder, an original settler. He had
casually conferred on me the freedom of the neighborhood.
And so with the sunshine and the
great bursts of leaves growing on the trees--just as things grow in fast
movies--I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with
the summer.
There was so much to read for one
thing and so much fine health to be pulled down out of the young breath-giving
air. I bought a dozen volumes on banking and credit and investment securities
and they stood on my shelf in red and gold like new money from the mint,
promising to unfold the shining secrets that only Midas and Morgan and Maecenas
knew. And I had the high intention of reading many other books besides.
I was rather literary in
college--one year I wrote a series of very solemn and obvious editorials for
the "Yale News"--and now I was going to bring back all such things
into my life and become again that most limited of all specialists, the
"well-rounded man." This isn't just an epigram--life is much more
successfully looked at from a single window, after all.
It was a matter of chance that I
should have rented a house in one of the strangest communities in North America.
It was on that slender riotous island which extends itself due east of New York
and where there are, among other natural curiosities, two unusual formations of
land. Twenty miles from the city a pair of enormous eggs, identical in contour
and separated only by a courtesy bay, jut out into the most domesticated body
of salt water in the Western Hemisphere, the great wet barnyard of Long Island
Sound. They are not perfect ovals--like the egg in the Columbus story they are
both crushed flat at the contact end--but their physical resemblance must be a
source of perpetual confusion to the gulls that fly overhead. To the wingless a
more arresting phenomenon is their dissimilarity in every particular except shape
and size.
I lived at West Egg, the--well,
the less fashionable of the two, though this is a most superficial tag to express
the bizarre and not a Little sinister contrast between them. My house was at
the very tip of the egg, only fifty yards from the Sound, and squeezed between
two huge places that rented for twelve or fifteen thousand a season. The one on
my right was a colossal affair by any standard--it was a factual imitation of
some Hôtel de Ville in Normandy, with a tower on one side, spanking new under a
thin beard of raw ivy, and a marble swimming pool and more than forty acres of
lawn and garden. It was Gatsby's mansion.
Or rather, as I didn't know Mr.
Gatsby it was a mansion inhabited by a gentleman of that name. My own house was
an eye-sore, but it was a small eye-sore, and it had been overlooked, so I had
a view of the water, a partial view of my neighbor's lawn, and the consoling proximity
of millionaires--all for eighty dollars a month.
Across the courtesy bay the white
palaces of fashionable East Egg glittered along the water, and the history of
the summer really begins on the evening I drove over there to have dinner with
the Tom Buchanans. Daisy was my second cousin once removed and I'd known Tom in
college. And just after the war I spent two days with them in Chicago.
Her husband, among various
physical accomplishments, had been one of the most powerful ends that ever played
football at New Haven—a national figure in a way, one of those men who reach
such an acute limited excellence at twenty-one that everything afterward savors
of anti-climax. His family were enormously wealthy--even in college his freedom
with money was a matter for reproach--but now he'd left Chicago and come east
in a fashion that rather took your breath away: for instance he'd brought down
a string of polo ponies from Lake Forest.
It was hard to realize that a man
in my own generation was wealthy enough to do that.
Why they came east I don't know.
They had spent a year in France, for no particular reason, and then drifted
here and there unrestfully wherever people played polo and were rich together.
This was a permanent move, said Daisy over the telephone, but I didn't believe
it--I had no sight into Daisy's heart but I felt that Tom would drift on
forever seeking a little wistfully for the dramatic turbulence of some
irrecoverable football game.
And so it happened that on a warm
windy evening I drove over to East Egg to see two old friends whom I scarcely
knew at all. Their house was even more elaborate than I expected, a cheerful
red and white Georgian Colonial mansion overlooking the bay. The lawn started
at the beach and ran toward the front door for a quarter of a mile, jumping
over sun-dials and brick walks and burning gardens--finally when it reached the
house drifting up the side in bright vines as though from the momentum of its
run. The front was broken by a line of French windows, glowing now with
reflected gold, and wide open to the warm windy afternoon, and Tom Buchanan in
riding clothes was standing with his legs apart on the front porch.
He had changed since his New
Haven years. Now he was a sturdy, straw haired man of thirty with a rather hard
mouth and a supercilious manner.
Two shining, arrogant eyes had
established dominance over his face and gave him the appearance of always leaning
aggressively forward. Not even the effeminate swank of his riding clothes could
hide the enormous power of that body--he seemed to fill those glistening boots
until he strained the top lacing and you could see a great pack of muscle shifting
when his shoulder moved under his thin coat. It was a body capable of enormous
leverage--a cruel body.
His speaking voice, a gruff husky
tenor, added to the impression of fractiousness he conveyed. There was a touch
of paternal contempt in it, even toward people he liked--and there were men at
New Haven who had hated his guts.
"Now, don't think my opinion
on these matters is final," he seemed to say, "just because I'm
stronger and more of a man than you are." We were in the same Senior
Society, and while we were never intimate I always had the impression that he
approved of me and wanted me to like him with some harsh, defiant wistfulness
of his own.
We talked for a few minutes on
the sunny porch.
"I've got a nice place
here," he said, his eyes flashing about restlessly.
Turning me around by one arm he
moved a broad flat hand along the front vista, including in its sweep a sunken
Italian garden, a half acre of deep pungent roses and a snub-nosed motor boat
that bumped the tide off shore.
"It belonged to Demaine the
oil man." He turned me around again, politely and abruptly. "We'll go
inside."
We walked through a high hallway
into a bright rosy-colored space, fragilely bound into the house by French
windows at either end.
The windows were ajar and gleaming
white against the fresh grass outside that seemed to grow a little way into the
house. A breeze blew through the room, blew curtains in at one end and out the
other like pale flags, twisting them up toward the frosted wedding cake of the
ceiling--and then rippled over the wine-colored rug, making a shadow on it as
wind does on the sea.
The only completely stationary
object in the room was an enormous couch on which two young women were buoyed
up as though upon an anchored balloon. They were both in white and their
dresses were rippling and fluttering as if they had just been blown back in
after a short flight around the house. I must have stood for a few moments
listening to the whip and snap of the curtains and the groan of a picture on
the wall.
Then there was a boom as Tom
Buchanan shut the rear windows and the caught wind died out about the room and
the curtains and the rugs and the two young women ballooned slowly to the floor.
The younger of the two was a
stranger to me. She was extended full length at her end of the divan,
completely motionless and with her chin raised a little as if she were
balancing something on it which was quite likely to fall. If she saw me out of
the corner of her eyes she gave no hint of it--indeed, I was almost surprised
into murmuring an apology for having disturbed her by coming in.
The other girl, Daisy, made an
attempt to rise--she leaned slightly forward with a conscientious
expression--then she laughed, an absurd, charming little laugh, and I laughed
too and came forward into the room.
"I'm p-paralyzed with
happiness."
She laughed again, as if she said
something very witty, and held my hand for a moment, looking up into my face,
promising that there was no one in the world she so much wanted to see. That
was a way she had.
She hinted in a murmur that the
surname of the balancing girl was Baker. (I've heard it said that Daisy's
murmur was only to make people lean toward her; an irrelevant criticism that
made it no less charming.)
At any rate Miss Baker's lips fluttered,
she nodded at me almost imperceptibly and then quickly tipped her head back
again--the object she was balancing had obviously tottered a little and given
her something of a fright. Again a sort of apology arose to my lips. Almost any
exhibition of complete self sufficiency draws a stunned tribute from me.
I looked back at my cousin who
began to ask me questions in her low, thrilling voice. It was the kind of voice
that the ear follows up and down as if each speech is an arrangement of notes
that will never be played again. Her face was sad and lovely with bright things
in it, bright eyes and a bright passionate mouth--but there was an excitement in
her voice that men who had cared for her found difficult to forget: a singing
compulsion, a whispered "Listen," a promise that she had done gay,
exciting things just a while since and that there were gay, exciting things
hovering in the next hour.
I told her how I had stopped off
in Chicago for a day on my way east and how a dozen people had sent their love
through me.
"Do they miss me?" she
cried ecstatically.
"The whole town is desolate.
All the cars have the left rear Wheel painted black as a mourning wreath and
there's a persistent wail all night along the North Shore."
"How gorgeous! Let's go
back, Tom. Tomorrow!" Then she added irrelevantly, "You ought to see
the baby."
"I'd like to."
"She's asleep. She's two
years old. Haven't you ever seen her?"
"Never."
"Well, you ought to see her.
She's----"
Tom Buchanan who had been
hovering restlessly about the room stopped and rested his hand on my shoulder.
"What you doing, Nick?"
"I'm a bond man."
"Who with?"
I told him.
"Never heard of them,"
he remarked decisively.
This annoyed me.
"You will," I answered
shortly. "You will if you stay in the East."
"Oh, I'll stay in the East,
don't you worry," he said, glancing at Daisy and then back at me, as if he
were alert for something more.
"I'd be a God Damned fool to
live anywhere else."
At this point Miss Baker said
"Absolutely!" with such suddenness that I started--it was the first
word she uttered since I came into the room.
Evidently it surprised her as
much as it did me, for she yawned and with a series of rapid, deft movements
stood up into the room.
"I'm stiff," she
complained, "I've been lying on that sofa for as long as I can
remember."
"Don't look at me,"
Daisy retorted. "I've been trying to get you to New York all
afternoon."
"No, thanks," said Miss
Baker to the four cocktails just in from the pantry, "I'm absolutely in
training."
Her host looked at her
incredulously.
"You are!" He took down
his drink as if it were a drop in the bottom of a glass. "How you ever get
anything done is beyond me."
I looked at Miss Baker wondering
what it was she "got done." I enjoyed looking at her. She was a
slender, small-breasted girl, with an erect carriage which she accentuated by
throwing her body backward at the shoulders like a young cadet. Her grey
sun-strained eyes looked back at me with polite reciprocal curiosity out of a
wan, charming discontented face. It occurred to me now that I had seen her, or
a picture of her, somewhere before.
"You live in West Egg,"
she remarked contemptuously. "I know somebody there."
"I don't know a
single----"
"You must know Gatsby."
"Gatsby?" demanded
Daisy. "What Gatsby?"
Before I could reply that he was
my neighbor dinner was announced; wedging his tense arm imperatively under mine
Tom Buchanan compeled me from the room as though he were moving a checker to
another square.
Slenderly, languidly, their hands
set lightly on their hips the two young women preceded us out onto a rosy-colored
porch open toward the sunset where four candles flickered on the table in the
diminished wind.
"Why CANDLES?" objected
Daisy, frowning. She snapped them out with her fingers. "In two weeks
it'll be the longest day in the year."
She looked at us all radiantly.
"Do you always watch for the
longest day of the year and then miss it? I always watch for the longest day in
the year and then miss it."
"We ought to plan
something," yawned Miss Baker, sitting down at the table as if she were
getting into bed.
"All right," said
Daisy. "What'll we plan?" She turned to me helplessly.
"What do people plan?"
Before I could answer her eyes
fastened with an awed expression on her little finger.
"Look!" she complained.
"I hurt it."
We all looked--the knuckle was
black and blue.
"You did it, Tom," she
said accusingly. "I know you didn't mean to but you DID do it. That's what
I get for marrying a brute of a man, a great big hulking physical specimen of
a----"
"I hate that word
hulking," objected Tom crossly, "even in kidding."
"Hulking," insisted
Daisy.
Sometimes she and Miss Baker
talked at once, unobtrusively and with a bantering inconsequence that was never
quite chatter, that was as cool as their white dresses and their impersonal
eyes in the absence of all desire. They were here--and they accepted Tom and
me, making only a polite pleasant effort to entertain or to be entertained.
They knew that presently dinner would be over and a little later the evening
too would be over and casually put away. It was sharply different from the
West where an evening was hurried
from phase to phase toward its close in a continually disappointed anticipation
or else in sheer nervous dread of the moment itself.
"You make me feel
uncivilized, Daisy," I confessed on my second glass of corky but rather
impressive claret. "Can't you talk about crops or something?"
I meant nothing in particular by
this remark but it was taken up in an unexpected way.
"Civilization's going to
pieces," broke out Tom violently.
"I've gotten to be a
terrible pessimist about things. Have you read
'The Rise of the Coloured
Empires' by this man Goddard?"
"Why, no," I answered,
rather surprised by his tone.
"Well, it's a fine book, and
everybody ought to read it. The idea is if we don't look out the white race
will be--will be utterly submerged.
It's all scientific stuff; it's
been proved."
"Tom's getting very profound,"
said Daisy with an expression of unthoughtful sadness. "He reads deep
books with long words in them.
What was that word we----"
"Well, these books are all
scientific," insisted Tom, glancing at her impatiently. "This fellow
has worked out the whole thing. It's up to us who are the dominant race to
watch out or these other races will have control of things."
"We've got to beat them
down," whispered Daisy, winking ferociously toward the fervent sun.
"You ought to live in
California--" began Miss Baker but Tom interrupted her by shifting heavily
in his chair.
"This idea is that we're
Nordics. I am, and you are and you are and----" After an infinitesimal
hesitation he included Daisy with a slight nod and she winked at me again.
"--and we've produced all the things that go to make civilization--oh,
science and art and all that.
Do you see?"
There was something pathetic in
his concentration as if his complacency, more acute than of old, was not enough
to him any more. When, almost immediately, the telephone rang inside and the
butler left the porch Daisy seized upon the momentary interruption and leaned
toward me.
"I'll tell you a family
secret," she whispered enthusiastically. "It's about the butler's
nose. Do you want to hear about the butler's nose?"
"That's why I came over
tonight."
"Well, he wasn't always a
butler; he used to be the silver polisher for some people in New York that had
a silver service for two hundred people.
He had to polish it from morning
till night until finally it began to affect his nose----"
"Things went from bad to
worse," suggested Miss Baker.
"Yes. Things went from bad
to worse until finally he had to give up his position."
For a moment the last sunshine fell
with romantic affection upon her glowing face; her voice compelled me forward
breathlessly as I listened--then the glow faded, each light deserting her with lingering
regret like children leaving a pleasant street at dusk.
The butler came back and murmured
something close to Tom's ear whereupon Tom frowned, pushed back his chair and
without a word went inside. As if his absence quickened something within her
Daisy leaned forward again, her voice glowing and singing.
"I love to see you at my
table, Nick. You remind me of a--of a rose, an absolute rose. Doesn't he?"
She turned to Miss Baker for confirmation.
"An absolute rose?"
This was untrue. I am not even faintly
like a rose. She was only extemporizing but a stirring warmth flowed from her
as if her heart was trying to come out to you concealed in one of those breathless,
thrilling words. Then suddenly she threw her napkin on the table and excused
herself and went into the house.
Miss Baker and I exchanged a short
glance consciously devoid of meaning. I was about to speak when she sat up
alertly and said "Sh!" in a warning voice. A subdued impassioned
murmur was audible in the room beyond and Miss Baker leaned forward, unashamed,
trying to hear. The murmur trembled on the verge of coherence, sank down,
mounted excitedly, and then ceased altogether.
"This Mr. Gatsby you spoke
of is my neighbor----" I said.
"Don't talk. I want to hear
what happens."
"Is something
happening?" I inquired innocently.
"You mean to say you don't
know?" said Miss Baker, honestly surprised.
"I thought everybody
knew."
"I don't."
"Why----" she said
hesitantly, "Tom's got some woman in New York."
"Got some woman?" I
repeated blankly.
Miss Baker nodded.
"She might have the decency
not to telephone him at dinner-time. Don't you think?"
Almost before I had grasped her
meaning there was the flutter of a dress and the crunch of leather boots and
Tom and Daisy were back at the table.
"It couldn't be
helped!" cried Daisy with tense gayety.
She sat down, glanced searchingly
at Miss Baker and then at me and continued: "I looked outdoors for a
minute and it's very romantic outdoors. There's a bird on the lawn that I think
must be a nightingale come over on the Cunard or White Star Line. He's singing
away----" her voice sang "----It's romantic, isn't it, Tom?"
"Very romantic," he
said, and then miserably to me: "If it's light enough after dinner I want
to take you down to the stables."
The telephone rang inside, startlingly,
and as Daisy shook her head decisively at Tom the subject of the stables, in
fact all subjects, vanished into air. Among the broken fragments of the last
five minutes at table I remember the candles being lit again, pointlessly, and
I was conscious of wanting to look squarely at every one and yet to avoid all
eyes. I couldn't guess what Daisy and Tom were thinking but I doubt if even
Miss Baker who seemed to have mastered a certain hardy skepticism was able
utterly to put this fifth guest's shrill metallic urgency out of mind. To a
certain temperament the situation might have seemed intriguing--my own instinct
was to telephone immediately for the police.
The horses, needless to say, were
not mentioned again. Tom and Miss Baker, with several feet of twilight between
them strolled back into the library, as if to a vigil beside a perfectly
tangible body, while trying to look pleasantly interested and a little deaf I
followed Daisy around a chain of connecting verandas to the porch in front. In its
deep gloom we sat down side by side on a wicker settee.
Daisy took her face in her hands,
as if feeling its lovely shape, and her eyes moved gradually out into the velvet
dusk. I saw that turbulent emotions possessed her, so I asked what I thought
would be some sedative questions about her little girl.
"We don't know each other
very well, Nick," she said suddenly.
"Even if we are cousins. You
didn't come to my wedding."
"I wasn't back from the
war."
"That's true." She
hesitated. "Well, I've had a very bad time, Nick, and I'm pretty cynical
about everything."
Evidently she had reason to be. I
waited but she didn't say any more, and after a moment I returned rather feebly
to the subject of her daughter.
"I suppose she talks,
and--eats, and everything."
"Oh, yes." She looked
at me absently. "Listen, Nick; let me tell you what I said when she was
born. Would you like to hear?"
"Very much."
"It'll show you how I've
gotten to feel about--things. Well, she was less than an hour old and Tom was
God knows where. I woke up out of the ether with an utterly abandoned feeling
and asked the nurse right away if it was a boy or a girl. She told me it was a
girl, and so I turned my head away and wept. 'All right,' I said, 'I'm glad
it's a girl. And I hope she'll be a fool--that's the best thing a girl can be
in this world, a beautiful little fool."
"You see I think
everything's terrible anyhow," she went on in a convinced way.
"Everybody thinks so--the most advanced people. And I KNOW.
I've been everywhere and seen
everything and done everything."
Her eyes flashed around her in a
defiant way, rather like Tom's, and she laughed with thrilling scorn.
"Sophisticated--God, I'm sophisticated!"
The instant her voice broke off, ceasing
to compel my attention, my belief, I felt the basic insincerity of what she had
said.
It made me uneasy, as though the
whole evening had been a trick of some sort to exact a contributory emotion
from me. I waited, and sure enough, in a moment she looked at me with an
absolute smirk on her lovely face as if she had asserted her membership in a
rather distinguished secret society to which she and Tom belonged.
Inside, the crimson room bloomed
with light. Tom and Miss Baker sat at either end of the long couch and she read
aloud to him from the "Saturday Evening Post"--the words, murmurous
and uninflected, running together in a soothing tune. The lamp-light, bright on
his boots and dull on the autumn-leaf yellow of her hair, glinted along the
paper as she turned a page with a flutter of slender muscles in her arms.
When we came in she held us
silent for a moment with a lifted hand.
"To be continued," she
said, tossing the magazine on the table, "in our very next issue."
Her body asserted itself with a
restless movement of her knee, and she stood up.
"Ten o'clock," she
remarked, apparently finding the time on the ceiling. "Time for this good
girl to go to bed."
"Jordan's going to play in
the tournament tomorrow," explained Daisy, "over at
Westchester."
"Oh,--you're JORdan
Baker."
I knew now why her face was familiar--its
pleasing contemptuous expression had looked out at me from many rotogravure
pictures of the sporting life at Asheville and Hot Springs and Palm Beach. I had
heard some story of her too, a critical, unpleasant story, but what it was I
had forgotten long ago.
"Good night," she said
softly. "Wake me at eight, won't you."
"If you'll get up."
"I will. Good night, Mr.
Carraway. See you anon."
"Of course you will,"
confirmed Daisy. "In fact I think I'll arrange a marriage. Come over
often, Nick, and I'll sort of--oh--fling you together. You know--lock you up
accidentally in linen closets and push you out to sea in a boat, and all that
sort of thing----"
"Good night," called
Miss Baker from the stairs. "I haven't heard a word."
"She's a nice girl,"
said Tom after a moment. "They oughtn't to let her run around the country
this way."
"Who oughtn't to?"
inquired Daisy coldly.
"Her family."
"Her family is one aunt
about a thousand years old. Besides, Nick's going to look after her, aren't
you, Nick? She's going to spend lots of week-ends out here this summer. I think
the home influence will be very good for her."
Daisy and Tom looked at each
other for a moment in silence.
"Is she from New York?"
I asked quickly.
"From Louisville. Our white
girlhood was passed together there. Our beautiful white----"
"Did you give Nick a little
heart to heart talk on the veranda?" demanded Tom suddenly.
"Did I?" She looked at
me. "I can't seem to remember, but I think we talked about the Nordic
race. Yes, I'm sure we did. It sort of crept up on us and first thing you
know----"
"Don't believe everything
you hear, Nick," he advised me.
I said lightly that I had heard
nothing at all, and a few minutes later
I got up to go home. They came to
the door with me and stood side by side in a cheerful square of light. As I
started my motor Daisy peremptorily called "Wait!
"I forgot to ask you
something, and it's important. We heard you were engaged to a girl out
West."
"That's right,"
corroborated Tom kindly. "We heard that you were engaged."
"It's libel. I'm too
poor."
"But we heard it,"
insisted Daisy, surprising me by opening up again in a flower-like way.
"We heard it from three people so it must be true."
Of course I knew what they were
referring to, but I wasn't even vaguely engaged. The fact that gossip had published
the banns was one of the reasons I had come east. You can't stop going with an
old friend on account of rumors and on the other hand I had no intention of
being rumored into marriage.
Their interest rather touched me
and made them less remotely rich--nevertheless, I was confused and a little
disgusted as I drove away. It seemed to me that the thing for Daisy to do was
to rush out of the house, child in arms--but apparently there were no such
intentions in her head. As for Tom, the fact that he "had some woman in
New York" was really less surprising than that he had been depressed by a
book.
Something was making him nibble
at the edge of stale ideas as if his sturdy physical egotism no longer
nourished his peremptory heart.
Already it was deep summer on
roadhouse roofs and in front of wayside garages, where new red gas-pumps sat out
in pools of light, and when I reached my estate at West Egg I ran the car under
its shed and sat for a while on an abandoned grass roller in the yard. The wind
had blown off, leaving a loud bright night with wings beating in the trees and a
persistent organ sound as the full bellows of the earth blew the frogs full of
life. The silhouette of a moving cat wavered across the moonlight and turning
my head to watch it I saw that I was not alone--fifty feet away a figure had
emerged from the shadow of my neighbor's mansion and was standing with his
hands in his pockets regarding the silver pepper of the stars. Something in his
leisurely movements and the secure position of his feet upon the lawn suggested
that it was Mr. Gatsby himself, come out to determine what share was his of our
local heavens.
I decided to call to him. Miss
Baker had mentioned him at dinner, and that would do for an introduction. But I
didn't call to him for he gave a sudden intimation that he was content to be
alone--he stretched out his arms toward the dark water in a curious way, and
far as I was from him I could have sworn he was trembling. Involuntarily I
glanced seaward—and distinguished nothing except a single green light, minute and
far away, that might have been the end of a dock. When I looked once more for
Gatsby he had vanished, and I was alone again in the unquiet darkness.
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